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Friday, 29 October 2010

rainbows

Current mood: no rainbows
Current music : SO SO WHAT WHAT IMMA BE YER LOVE TONIGHT
Location: inside mah room




It’s just black and white since you left.

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no rainbows nor the epic ponytails.

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no more..

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excuse my laziness ladies and gentlemen ;D








She looked outside her windows. Watching as the rain roared its wrath to the mother earth. Cleanse all the living being under the horizon with its water. She can see the dirt that covered her mother’s car slowly being drifted away.




A muscle in her jaws tightened


She wished to be cleaned too


Dark eyes hardened


She gripped her bed sheets





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She loves the rain. The water is relaxing, and it feels like your soul is cleaned. She was breaking through the rain that day. The uniform was clinging like her second skin; she used her bag as her temporary shade. Somehow when she was dashing madly to her home, she just realized something.




The droplets was sliding down her skin


Her hair was sticking to her face


Her body was drenched


Her speed decreased


Then she smelled rain


And smiled cheekily




She decided that day that she loves the rain.


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When she was little, her mother showered her with lots of fairy tales. She still remembered the sleeping beauty.




The freaking sleeping beauty.




Letting herself being pricked by a sewing machine (sewing machine!) and sleep peacefully waiting her prince to slay the witch and bust her door then making out with her.




In the end, the book said:


‘The dark clouds that covered the kingdoms slowly disappearing replaced by the beautiful rainbows and they live happily ever after…”






oh yeah.


Happily ever after.


Che. Fairytales.


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She met her long lost undying love 2 weeks ago.


She was buying a lemonade when she saw him. He was standing right 6 meters beside her, buying a corndog with heavily doused mustard and mayonnaise, His features is soft yet muscular and he is one head taller than her.


somehow her eyes can't stop following him.


unfortunately when she was 'observing' him (or ogling him. audrey nicely put it) his eyes caught her features. 


dark meet soft hazel


She can feel things around her stopped


Oh yeah. earth stopped its rotation


not. cool.


Finally for seemed like ages he nodded and smiled. 


She put her best smile and waved.




earth continued its rotation
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When she was doodling lazily in her class somehow, a simple doodle draw make her remember her friends. 


A doodle dragon makes her remember Ipeh


A doodle round smiley faces makes her remember Eric


A tiny doodle girl makes her remember ketherine


A stick makes her remember isa


and finally a doodle fly makes her remember tere.


Oh how she missed the old days.




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The only thing that never change in this world is memories.

-BOWSAAAH-





Saturday, 2 October 2010

FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY

current mood: cranky.
current music : OVERDOSED!
location : where there is a cup of steaming hot green tea.


NO NO NO. DON'T THROW THOSE TOMATOES TO ME. NOO NOOO.

AND THOSE EGGS.

(blame the midterms baby).


finally.

well finally.

at least.


MIDTERMS IS OVER.


yay!

...

(boo)

...

(woe.)


yes yes. its over. please throw those confetti and party paper please. let me angsting in peace inside my room. and no. My tests is busted and I am doomed. how about yours? hm. great I presume.

yes? no?

well then. without further ado, here we go.


1 WEEK TEST THAT DOOMED TO FAIL :


day 1 : math and english

math : i swear i practice and do a lot of logarithm , factoring and craps. but in the morning. i only can do three from 15 problems. i don't want to talk about those 11. in recess time I dragged sp to girls toilet. I slammed the door cursing loudly in my head. I locked my self inside until recess time.

result : FAILED

english : i checked my sheets 4 times before I collect it to the teacher. in recess I compared my answers to adit. It went smoothly and my self esteem boosted a little. but 2 days ago I heard that more than a half class is failed. and there is no way I am not included into that ' more than a half '

result : FAILED



day 2 : chemistry and mandarin

Chemistry : i don't want to talk about it.

result : FAILED

mandarin : nah, i am good and perfectly happy for this.

result : PASS (yay!)


day 3 : physics and Bahasa Indonesia


physics : hrmm. i think i can pass this. but I messed up in last problems. damn you vector.

result : i don't know. not so sure. so FAIL! D<

Bahasa Indonesia : It's about pride damnit. if I can't pass my own language sent me to africa.

result : PASS! PASS! PASSS! PASS PWEAAASEEE . . . BOHOOOHOO. D;


day 4 : civics and biology


Civics : I LOVE YOU TEACHER. I LOVE LOVE LOVE LURVEEE YOU. I'll sing you taio cruz with my guitar outside your window with those epic gaga costume every night. i'll become your pizza delivery every day , I EVEN WASH YOUR CAT. EVERY . SINGLE. DAY .

result : PASS!

biology : she didn't tell my class about scientific names.

result : pass to fail.


day 5 : geography and religion

geography : smooth ensli. reaal smooth.

result : PASS! ( i hope)

religion : i failed.

result : FAILED


day 6 : sociology and history

sociology : those multiple choice make my eyes burn.

result : PASS! (failed...)

history : I don't remember. (blame the aspirin.)

result : PASS!

last day (Yay!) : economy and computer

economy : ... i failed at writing the conclusion problem.

result : pass. *sigh* no not really. FAILED!

computer : I can do flash, I can do programming , I know computer system. I do project . heck , I even can do a little hacking. but.. WHY THE HELL I CAN'T DO PASCAL FORMULA??

result : i stop drinking my tea if I failed. (PASS!)


Yes i am still angsting now. pigging my tango , pitying myself , eat junk food , drinking my tea.


BOHOHOHOOHOHO.


did I mention that I only sleep less than 4 hours last week. no? yes? no?

the glory of caffeine..

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(ahh)

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oh. i have a text message.

...

(click)

...

OH SHIET. FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML

i need to take my report next week.

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eff my life.

Monday, 13 September 2010

patience is a virtue

current mood: annoyed . pissed pissed pissed. as pissed as mount everest
current music : WHY MOMMY WHYY
place : my room. our room. mommy room.

i hate you.
i hate you.

MOMMY WHY MOMMY.

D:

what. i am pissed. go away.

mommy. mommy i hate you. yet i love you.

you don't know how much i study.
i am no good.
i don't have that einstein brain
even we share the same birthdate
that suck.
i know.


mommy. if only. if only you knew.
every night when you sleep.
i sneak of to that empty room
grabbed my blasted books (physics and friends)
sit in that huge chair

and study
oh
did i mention that the empty room is spooky at night
especially midnight?
now you know.


you said that i stabbed your heart
when you see that fourty marked on my paper
if only you knew
my heart is crushed and blended and stabbed
to know i am failed to please you
to know i am failed as a daughter
to know i am nothing

do you know
the moment you took me
to those fancy restaurant
we sat and chatting
truth to be told

i felt guilty
ashamed
disgusted

of my self
i lost my appetite
i don't deserve to be in here

30 minutes ago
you questioning me about ny study
please i know that look


i know i am a failure
but that doesn't mean i am not trying
to be a less-failure

but those steps is really high
and far to reach



just letting you know though

Friday, 10 September 2010

3 MINUTES RUSH.







current mood:
RUSH BABY. RUSHH (RUSH , RUSH ,RUSH) playing cupid btw.
current music: oh shoot. i am busted.
location : in solitude as room could be.



D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D:

D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D:

D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D:


okay okay. sorry for the emote.

someone is being poetic today.

and cheesy (the positive cheesy though)

(BIG --> D:)

*insert soap opera theme song here*

30 seconds ago i was chatting with my un - separate - able - pain - in - the - ass - best- friend. guess who. IT'S JEJE. WOOT WOOT.

ahum.

anywhoooo.

the conversation goes like this :

I was babbling about my future and my awesomeness when suddenly he said the magic word.


enslithegreat : oh you have not yet seen my masterpiece jeje.
jason : mellisa is ready to marry me
enslithegreat : my awesomeness.
enslithegreat : . . .
enslithegreat : what?
enslithegreat : what?
enslithegreat : what?
enslithegreat : WHAAAT?
enslithegreat: D:
enslithegreat: here is a ring
enslithegreat: oh geee.
enslithegreat: I WANT TO BE MELL BRIDESMAID
enslithegreat: :D
jason: nonono
jason: you'll be her bride of honor
jason: cool
jason: hmmm.
jason: so where will i host my wedding
jason: don't know
enslithegreat: OH OH.
enslithegreat: i want sexy boy
enslithegreat: be my partner
enslithegreat: HE IS MINE
enslithegreat: MUAHAHAHHAHA

let's just skip that part

jason : i want 2 mini me's
jason : i'll be with her.
jason : every time.
enslithegreat : oh young love.
jason : i don't need any girls
jason : sorry bitches
jason : I'm off limits
ensithegreat : WKAKAKKAKAKAK
jason : i am loyal
jason : you know
jason : my look.
jason : my sexiness
jason : all hers
enslithegreat: cheesy
jason : you know
jason : i think i am falling for her
jason : hard.
enslithegreat : omg
jason : i never thought to stand again.
enslithegreat : i'm proud of you
enslithegreat : OH SHIT\
enslithegreat : THAT WAS THE
enslithegreat : SWEETEST THING
enslithegreat : EVER
jason : ahhahahhaha
enslithegreat : I'M SO GONNA BLOG IT
jason : ahahahahahha
jason : huh?
jason : what the hell?


ISNT THAT THE SWEETEST THING EVER. D: especially this is jeje we are talkin about. omg. i am so proud of you boy.

MELL YOU BETTER SEE THIS. D<

ensli, out!



picture treat!



Thursday, 9 September 2010

beat





current mood: proudly sober.
current music: cats meowing outside
place : room. apple action.


well gee.

i'm cool. yeah
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so basically I don't know when is your bithday is. until 2 seconds ago our ipeh wishing you on twitter.

nah.

kidding. I forgot. (don't sue me)

i feel an emotional break down now. my mum banned me from seeing my son. (my mac) and she hijacked my laptop. So i typed this with god finger of mine in this tiny touch keyboard ipod of mine.


i was stressed. no no. i am obviously stressed. exams. home work. studies. computer, work, family , friends , you.


i want to. i don't know. i just like. i don't know. i don't know what to say. i am proud of you. for being fifteen 40 minutes ago. i am proud of you. for what you achieved in that blasted school.

i know we've been in our ways for 3 months. many happens. I am not that suck with math. Now i gained 1 kilo from last week. i dropped my mum new blackberry. i even loves durian.


but some things still the same.

i
hate you for not answering my tweets, phone calls, etcetera etcetera.

i deeply am still love you the same.

so please. please please.

even when you are down
there is someone to give you their hands

even when you sick
there is someone that force the medicine down your throat. and pray for your health

even when you shed your tears
there is someone that kicked his or her ass and make them your pet for a day


oh my god. I am crying now.

even when you happy
there is someone that undyingly happy just to see your smile.


that someone may not me. it can be anyone. that truly loves you. care you. hence, even jump to lava pond when you are there.

my point is. i am no longer with you. no longer by your side.

so please

remember me
remember us

even it is faint

i can still feel our
heart beat as one.



happy 15th birthday theresya tan

your soul mate

ensli

Saturday, 4 September 2010

The art of love

teacher, thank you for ripping my heart out and stomping on it.

-BOWSAAAH-




current mood : FEEL THE WRATH BABY.
current music : keyboard clicking.
location : Room. in front of mac-y. oh . la .la


blame the writer block.

okay. Why do teacher (s) have to be so pushy?

seriously.

it's not like I am not studying or anything. (Hence, I EVEN STUDYING EVERY NIGHT MIND YOU.)

I have been dating with biology, sociology and the other from this past two weeks. I buy them gift, I tell them stories. I even watched them sleeping every night!

and boy they dumped me.

now folks, don't worry

I still eat things unhealthy. didn't brush my teeth daily , I still blab everything to Mei , and I still am the same girl that has fat stored in her belly and butt. (seriously)

there have juuust some modifications :

1. I have the ' i hate the world' attitude and smashed people around me. turned them black- and - blue

Juan is my first victim though.

I punched his gut and slapped his head this morning when he mentioned about his scores for math , physics and biology. I felt some sort of satisfactory ( and sorry) though seeing him clutching his stomach and writhing in agony. omg I felt like chun - li.

2. I have 'this' feeling when I see my mother. (MOMMY PLEASE FORGIVE YOUR LOVELY SWEET CARING DAUGHTER. D;)

3. I gained 1 kilo. (damn you tango)

4. The teacher seems to love me more. (please. I know those glances since I was 5th grade)

Two days earlier

"Hello teacher!"

glare. "hello ensli." walks away.

"uuuh.."

and so on.

I feel like committing suicide now.

Oh yeah I remember. I need to remedial my english speech ' because i am not making any eye contacts and I was moving to much ' yeah thank you teacher for the words. I love you too. ;) (insert hearts and flowers here)

god, I AM pathetic.



so folks. excuse my self. I need to go sulk with geography for the upcoming remedial.

oh.

and biology too.


ensli, out!




Sunday, 20 June 2010

miscommunication



Miscommunication


"Mei. If my downfall is death by Chase. " I gulped. " Or heart attack. My nintendo is yours. "


- Bowser -




I was sitting Indian style and struggling with my headphone wire when I suddenly heard a loud bang and loud yelling outside. A minute later , I heard the door of my room forcefully opened. There , I saw Mei panting heavily tried vainly catching her breath. She glared at my head. Maybe trying to make a big hole with her glare.


"erm.. Yes Mei?" I put my headphone beside me and turning myself facing her. Without any words she sat beside me and grabbed my headphone wire.


" I can't believe it! He broke my glasses!" She huffed. Her finger trying desperately to untangled the tangled wire. I chuckled.


"wow. How so?" I wrapped my arm around her shoulder . " and who is he who broke your glasses?"


Mei took in a big breath. "Well. I was playing Mario party with Mike. When I heard a faint crash and a loud cursing-"


"erm. I didn't heard any crashing sounds and a loud cursing." I quirked my eyebrow at Mei . She looked at me dumbly.


"Where were you 10 minutes ago? "


"erm.. Here? " Mei looked around and pointed my headphone next to me. " And you are hearing your ipod. Am I correct?" She looked at me clearly annoyed. I nodded.


She groaned. "Then you can't hear anything with your ear plugged !" I smiled shepishly. " erm.. continue Mei"


"So When I went to my work station . I find my Glasses scattered on the table." She buried her face in the pillow. A sigh of frustration escaped her lips


"did the lens out from its frame? " I asked innocently. She threw a pillow at me in attempt to hit my head. And she succeeded.


"Yes baby. The lens is out. Now can I borrow your ds please? I am frustated enough with the whole graphic and 3d things and now the high and mighty Luke just broke my glasses with his butt and he won't take ANY responsibility! and now I can't -"


"okay. okay. Chill Mei. Chill." I grabbed my bag besides me and give her my white ds. "You know. When I was 9th grade. I get my glasses squashed too." I remembered My poor glasses that trampled by my OWN feet. because I was chasing ipeh.


Mei opened the ds and pushed the on/off button. Without turning her head to me. "How so?"


"I stomped it. When I was chasing ipeh." I smirked. Proud from my statement. She turned to me and made a face.


"Did the lens out from its frame?" I chuckled . "Yes the lens was out from its frame , Mei. "


A peaceful silence filled the room. with megaman starforce theme song playing from my ds. "Mei. don't you dare play my Zerker. Play ninja. " I threatened silently.


again. peaceful silence filled the room. I listening to my ipod. Mei busy with my nintendo.


"hei. ensli." I opened my eyes and hummed. "Why are you here?"


I rolled my eyes. " I am working duh."


"I know that. I mean Why are you here?" She asked softly. eyes never leaving my nintendo screen.


" erm.. working?" Mei sighed. "you never worked here remember. Well you worked here. rarely. You always worked at home." sensing there is no reply. Mei continue "Chase is furious you know."


I removed my earphone. "How come? did I do something wrong?" I tried desperately to remember . Is it that 'nitro' project? Is it fail? Is it below 5th rank?


I failed to remember as I can feel dread creeping my guts. Mei noticed my discomfort chuckled.


"seriously it's not that bad." She throw a pillow at me "It's not like he's going to kick you out."


"But what if he does? It's his house after all!"


Mei turned her body. facing me. " ensli. trust me. IT . IS . OKAY. "


"but but but. He is scary." I muttered under my pillow.


"I know. "


"He can kick me anytime!"


"You've said that."


"I don't want to be kicked!"


"I know."


"oh my gawd. what should I do. what should I do-"


"ensli."


"erm. Yes? "


"Shut up."


"okaaay."


"and go." she threatened me .


I glared at her under my pillow. "You are not helping."


"need I pull your ass to him?"


I sighed loudly and get out of that comfy bed. I walked and grabbed the doorknob. I could feel butterflies dancing inside my stomach. "Mei. If my downfall is death by Chase. " I gulped. " Or heart attack. My nintendo is yours." Then I opened the door.


I walked through the door. On my way to see Chase I saw Angel was sitting in front of my work station. Doing something.


"Hey gel. May I know what are you doing in my work station?" I stand beside her.


She turned her head at me and grinned. "Hey sli. long time no see."


"long time no see too gel." I flashed my smile. " So. what are you doing in my work station?"


"Oh. I was learning your previous flash you know. Mei told me so."


I saw the computer screen and saw little link was slashing his sword.


"hmmm. If you have anything to ask. don't hesitate then. sugar." I tackled her with hug and tickled her waist. She laughed loudly.


"okay okay. I ask you later then." a little giggle escaping her mouth. " So what are you doing then?"


"well actually I am searching for Chase." I scratched my head. "Do you see him?"


"mmhmmm. I think I saw him at kitchen. doing something. I don't know. "


"okay. I go see him then . See you later noob"


She rolled her eyes "Bye then sea kraken. "


So I went straight to kitchen. And saw Chase was chopping something. I guess it was tomato? I don't remember. okay ensli. inhaleee. exhaleee. I deliberately took a slow stride to him. He didn't notice me until I was standing 2 meter behind him. Feeling someone presence he turned his back. His right hand holding a knife.


"OH MY GAWD. DON'T KILL ME." I shrieked like a banshee and put my hand in defense mode. Chase cringed and glared at me.


"calm yourself . You make my ears bleed." Chase put the knife in the counter and looked at me. "What do you want?"


I stared at him in horror. I could feel sweat was formed in my palm. "Hello Chase. fancy meet you here." I forced a smile. at him and waving my hand a little. He glared at me with his poker face and turned around. He continued chopping his tomato. (maybe?)


Feeling ignored. I talked to him first. "Well. Is something wrong?"


He finished his chopped tomato and put it inside the boiling water. "nope."


"Is it the raw project I send to you? I s it bad?"


"Yes it is." He grabbed 2 instant noodles and tear the lid open.


I looked at 2 instant noodle Chase holding. "aren't that mi sedap?"


"Yes they are."


"Is that curry?"


"Yes they are."


Awkward silent filled the room. I played with my nails and shifted uncomfortably.


"You know." I give it a pause before continuing "Mei told me that you were mad at me."


"oh. she did?" he looked at me from his shoulder a second then turned away. I stared at him dumbly.


"Yes she did. seriously Chase is it the project matter. Well I am sorry then. My raw wasn't to good-"


"no it's fine."


"Then what is the problem?" I asked clearly annoyed.


" I called you yesterday." He paused. "6 times"


" I left my phone at my bag-"


" Work can't wait. Mrs. Angela."


I glared dangerously at him. "Don't call me that. It's disgusting."


"I see then."



silence.



"okaaay. I am sorry then." I laughed awkwardly at him. "We are okay then... I suppose."


He stirred the noodles in front of him and tasted it. "I guess."


I squealed happily. I clapped my hand together " So am I still working here?"


"Yes you are. unless you want me to kick you out. " He turned his back. his hand holding the noodles. I grinned at him and pointed the noodles


"So can I have your noodles please?"


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"Hello Mei!" I chirped happily at Mei. My hand holding a bowl of noodles with egg in it.


"Hei ensli. did Chase already kicked you out?" She quirked an eyebrow to me. I grinned.


"Nope. He gave me a bowl of noodles baby." I sat beside her. and eat my noodle happily. She sniffed my noodle.


"Is that mie sedaap?"


"Yup." I slurped my noodles


"curry?" I nodded happily



I smacked her shoulder playfully and give her a fork.


"Wait! I save my game first!"


She hurriedly close my ds and grabbed the fork. With mouthful of noodles She asked me.



"So did Chase kicked you yet?"




The end?




ensli's rant : EPIC YOU KNOW EPIC >D . I can't believe I finished this in one day. *giggle* I know I am sucks at updating. Please don't throw that tomatoes at me. *waving white flag* Okaaaay. I was playing megaman starforce and forgot about this blog. end of the story. Okay folks. I swear I'll update faster next time. wish me luck then. >D



Ciao


enslitotheMAX