patience is a virtue

current mood: annoyed . pissed pissed pissed. as pissed as mount everest
current music : WHY MOMMY WHYY
place : my room. our room. mommy room.

i hate you.
i hate you.

MOMMY WHY MOMMY.

D:

what. i am pissed. go away.

mommy. mommy i hate you. yet i love you.

you don't know how much i study.
i am no good.
i don't have that einstein brain
even we share the same birthdate
that suck.
i know.

mommy. if only. if only you knew.
every night when you sleep.
i sneak of to that empty room
grabbed my blasted books (physics and friends)
sit in that huge chair
and study
oh
did i mention that the empty room is spooky at night
especially midnight?
now you know.

you said that i stabbed your heart
when you see that fourty marked on my paper
if only you knew
my heart is crushed and blended and stabbed
to know i am failed to please you
to know i am failed as a daughter
to know i am nothing

do you know
the moment you took me
to those fancy restaurant
we sat and chatting
truth to be told
i felt guilty
ashamed
disgusted
of my self
i lost my appetite
i don't deserve to be in here

30 minutes ago
you questioning me about ny study
please i know that look


i know i am a failure
but that doesn't mean i am not trying
to be a less-failure

but those steps is really high
and far to reach


just letting you know though

3 MINUTES RUSH.

current mood: RUSH BABY. RUSHH (RUSH , RUSH ,RUSH) playing cupid btw.

current music: oh shoot. i am busted.

location : in solitude as room could be.

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okay okay. sorry for the emote.

someone is being poetic today.

and cheesy (the positive cheesy though)

(BIG --> D:)

*insert soap opera theme song here*

30 seconds ago i was chatting with my un - separate - able - pain - in - the - ass - best- friend. guess who. IT'S JEJE. WOOT WOOT.

ahum.

anywhoooo.

the conversation goes like this :

I was babbling about my future and my awesomeness when suddenly he said the magic word.

enslithegreat : oh you have not yet seen my masterpiece jeje.

jason : mellisa is ready to marry me

enslithegreat : my awesomeness.

enslithegreat : . . .

enslithegreat : what?

enslithegreat : what?

enslithegreat : what?

enslithegreat : WHAAAT?

enslithegreat: D:

enslithegreat: here is a ring

enslithegreat: oh geee.

enslithegreat: I WANT TO BE MELL BRIDESMAID

enslithegreat: :D

jason: nonono

jason: you'll be her bride of honor

jason: cool

jason: hmmm.

jason: so where will i host my wedding

jason: don't know

enslithegreat: OH OH.

enslithegreat: i want sexy boy

enslithegreat: be my partner

enslithegreat: HE IS MINE

enslithegreat: MUAHAHAHHAHA

let's just skip that part

jason : i want 2 mini me's

jason : i'll be with her.

jason : every time.

enslithegreat : oh young love.

jason : i don't need any girls

jason : sorry bitches

jason : I'm off limits

ensithegreat : WKAKAKKAKAKAK

jason : i am loyal

jason : you know

jason : my look.

jason : my sexiness

jason : all hers

enslithegreat: cheesy

jason : you know

jason : i think i am falling for her

jason : hard.

enslithegreat : omg

jason : i never thought to stand again.

enslithegreat : i'm proud of you

enslithegreat : OH SHIT\

enslithegreat : THAT WAS THE

enslithegreat : SWEETEST THING

enslithegreat : EVER

jason : ahhahahhaha

enslithegreat : I'M SO GONNA BLOG IT

jason : ahahahahahha

jason : huh?

jason : what the hell?

ISNT THAT THE SWEETEST THING EVER. D: especially this is jeje we are talkin about. omg. i am so proud of you boy.

MELL YOU BETTER SEE THIS. D<

ensli, out!

picture treat!

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beat

current mood: proudly sober.
current music: cats meowing outside
place : room. apple action.


well gee.

i'm cool. yeah.

so basically I don't know when is your bithday is. until 2 seconds ago our ipeh wishing you on twitter.

nah.

kidding. I forgot. (don't sue me)

i feel an emotional break down now. my mum banned me from seeing my son. (my mac) and she hijacked my laptop. So i typed this with god finger of mine in this tiny touch keyboard ipod of mine.


i was stressed. no no. i am obviously stressed. exams. home work. studies. computer, work, family , friends , you.


i want to. i don't know. i just like. i don't know. i don't know what to say. i am proud of you. for being fifteen 40 minutes ago. i am proud of you. for what you achieved in that blasted school.

i know we've been in our ways for 3 months. many happens. I am not that suck with math. Now i gained 1 kilo from last week. i dropped my mum new blackberry. i even loves durian.


but some things still the same.

i hate you for not answering my tweets, phone calls, etcetera etcetera.

i deeply am still love you the same.

so please. please please.

even when you are down
there is someone to give you their hands

even when you sick
there is someone that force the medicine down your throat. and pray for your health

even when you shed your tears
there is someone that kicked his or her ass and make them your pet for a day


oh my god. I am crying now.

even when you happy
there is someone that undyingly happy just to see your smile.


that someone may not me. it can be anyone. that truly loves you. care you. hence, even jump to lava pond when you are there.

my point is. i am no longer with you. no longer by your side.

so please

remember me
remember us

even it is faint

i can still feel our heart beat as one.



happy 15th birthday theresya tan

your soul mate

ensli

The art of love

teacher, thank you for ripping my heart out and stomping on it.

-BOWSAAAH-

current mood : FEEL THE WRATH BABY.

current music : keyboard clicking.

location : Room. in front of mac-y. oh . la .la

blame the writer block.

okay. Why do teacher (s) have to be so pushy?

seriously.

it's not like I am not studying or anything. (Hence, I EVEN STUDYING EVERY NIGHT MIND YOU.)

I have been dating with biology, sociology and the other from this past two weeks. I buy them gift, I tell them stories. I even watched them sleeping every night!

and boy they dumped me.

now folks, don't worry

I still eat things unhealthy. didn't brush my teeth daily , I still blab everything to Mei , and I still am the same girl that has fat stored in her belly and butt. (seriously)

there have juuust some modifications :

1. I have the ' i hate the world' attitude and smashed people around me. turned them black- and - blue

Juan is my first victim though.

I punched his gut and slapped his head this morning when he mentioned about his scores for math , physics and biology. I felt some sort of satisfactory ( and sorry) though seeing him clutching his stomach and writhing in agony. omg I felt like chun - li.

2. I have 'this' feeling when I see my mother. (MOMMY PLEASE FORGIVE YOUR LOVELY SWEET CARING DAUGHTER. D;)

3. I gained 1 kilo. (damn you tango)

4. The teacher seems to love me more. (please. I know those glances since I was 5th grade)

Two days earlier

"Hello teacher!"

glare. "hello ensli." walks away.

"uuuh.."

and so on.

I feel like committing suicide now.

Oh yeah I remember. I need to remedial my english speech ' because i am not making any eye contacts and I was moving to much ' yeah thank you teacher for the words. I love you too. ;) (insert hearts and flowers here)

god, I AM pathetic.

so folks. excuse my self. I need to go sulk with geography for the upcoming remedial.

oh.

and biology too.

ensli, out!