ERIK YOU IDIOT

HEH YOU ARROGANT AND DESPICABLE GIRAFFE IN THA' WHOLE UNIVERSE.

oh yes you my dear darling. I am sorry I kinda uh.. forgot your birthday last night and I am uh... YOU KNOW. EMOTIONALLY WRECKED RIGHT NOW. SOO YEAH.

cough cough.

so my dear i am gonna give you my famous speech no jutsu time. BUT BELIEVE ME MY SPEECH WILL BRINGS YOU TEAR AND YOU GONNA  LURVE ME WITH PASSION LATER.

so my dear you are sixteen now. although its kinda uh.. missed but believe me. 

I REMEMBER YOUR BIRTHDAY CLEARLY DAMMIT. SO STOP SULKING AND HATING ME. 

(or you are gonna arrested to make  a beautiful and sweet girl like me become so emotionally stressed because of tha guilt that overcome her so much that she fainted and never EVA opened her eyes again)

so you know. school is tough. i never knew that little gray book will ever bring emotional pain and leave a big BIG scar to my poor poor heart. 

oh sob.

OKAY I AM DONE WITH THA' EXCUSE now is the real thing.

well, since you are the only one that ever bring me a holiday present straight to my house and wake my beauty sleep in the progress you upgraded yourself from 'Best' into 'AWESOME' joining ipeh and friends. 

CONGRATULATIONS!

err although the pen is kinda broken rite now. BUT OH WELL. 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIC JARVIS. 

YOU ARE  MY BEAUTIFUL GIRAFFE PET EVA.

sincerely your master

ENSLI >D

friends like you are hard to find

in a lifetime you get only a few

and when you find them 

you always know them by sight and heart alone

and when you find them 

you always grow a bit taller in your soul

and when you find them

you also know that as the years come 

and as the years go by

you have been blessed just to know them

thus blessed am I 

and thus lucky have I been 

to know a person like you

the tree that stuck in its roots.

i decided to quit my technology guild from now on since I saw my report yesterday. I only managed to pass 3 from 10 subject at my school. And what have crushing me the most is my psychology test, It said that my intelligence is under average. 

well, then.

what should I do now?

my intelligence is under average, that means i am just a retarded female that can't do a simple equation such as algebra and friends. 

that means I am just another fail project that doomed to be another pathetic co-worker that never get her salary raise in another 5 years. 

Le sigh.

I contacted my guild friend that I am gonna quit and never ever do any project until next year or until i can see any improvement with my subject. She didn't take the news well. pronto. After a lot of explaining and bullshit no jutsu she let it go.

"Well, blockhead. Go figures. I wait for you. Scratch that. We wait for you. so when you are done hitting the books just come back and do your mac."


oh I am touched Mei. seriously. So before I go all mushy again i hung the phone, and write this thing.

the point why I write this is, I want this as my reminder why I took a step back such as a huge decision to leave my guild. Because believe me, half of my life is there. I mean. I can't do anything other than drawing , and that place. That place make me always believe that i am not that retarded, well a little. But still..

So, my self in the future. if you ever slack and do anything about photoshop and friends shame on you then.




sincerely yourself that failed in tha' past


-ensli-