the tree that stuck in its roots.

i decided to quit my technology guild from now on since I saw my report yesterday. I only managed to pass 3 from 10 subject at my school. And what have crushing me the most is my psychology test, It said that my intelligence is under average. 

well, then.

what should I do now?

my intelligence is under average, that means i am just a retarded female that can't do a simple equation such as algebra and friends. 

that means I am just another fail project that doomed to be another pathetic co-worker that never get her salary raise in another 5 years. 

Le sigh.

I contacted my guild friend that I am gonna quit and never ever do any project until next year or until i can see any improvement with my subject. She didn't take the news well. pronto. After a lot of explaining and bullshit no jutsu she let it go.

"Well, blockhead. Go figures. I wait for you. Scratch that. We wait for you. so when you are done hitting the books just come back and do your mac."


oh I am touched Mei. seriously. So before I go all mushy again i hung the phone, and write this thing.

the point why I write this is, I want this as my reminder why I took a step back such as a huge decision to leave my guild. Because believe me, half of my life is there. I mean. I can't do anything other than drawing , and that place. That place make me always believe that i am not that retarded, well a little. But still..

So, my self in the future. if you ever slack and do anything about photoshop and friends shame on you then.




sincerely yourself that failed in tha' past


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